Lack of Patience

*sigh*

Ok, I took a little break there to try and calm down.  I'm a little better, but it's been almost 2 hours since I talked to the office, and still no email.  I'm sure he didn't have it ready for email format, if he was planning on meeting with me instead, but I'm still annoyed it's not here.  All I can guess at this point is that there is something in the results that is serious/important.  Maybe it shows that I am autistic, and he didn't want to drop that on me through email.  It wouldn't surprise me, though.

I'm sure he's going to tell me I have depression issues, but that's nothing new.  I know that.  He tried telling me at my consultation that he thinks I have ADHD.  I doubt that.  He wanted to put me on medication for depression then, and seemed annoyed when I told him meds were not an option.  I'm done with chemical drugs unless absolutely nothing else helps.  None of the RX antidepressants I've ever taken have many difference, I see no reason to try another one.  My Relax Now tablets work just fine.  Yes, I still get freaked out and overreact to stuff, but my anxiety levels are at least halfway tolerable.

I feel bad for freaking out on the office manager.  That's how I react when things don't go as planned.  If I end up going in on Tuesday, I'll be sure to apologize to her.  I was really kind of a bitch.  I don't handle changes well. :(

I'm running out the door to go to our support group for Ricky.  I'm sure they'll all be excited to hear that he learned to fly a kite today all by himself.  He had a lot of fun.  I have to remember to keep things in perspective and not let things get me so riled up.  Easier said than done, or it wouldn't be such an issue.